Eternal love?
March 5, 2010
I am happy to report that I no longer can say I love him. It has been a couple of years gone by without a single post. And about 5 years since this started. I cannot believe it, but it did took about 5 years to completely stop loving a man you have decided to stop loving. The best thing is, we are still friends. However, what happened back then has become a taboo topic, basically a topic we shove into the locker and throw away the key. I bet we are both agreeable to that.
So, recently we talked, and I realised, I don’t really have that I want to please him feeling anymore. The desire is maybe 90% fizzled out. There is no desire to talk to him, no desire to see him. Possibly if he called and said he was right outside, I would make the excuse that I am not in. You know, that kind of scenario. It was ok just chit chatting, but no excitement reserved for people you love. So I can safely say, although we are friends, I am no longer in love. I guess this is attributed to the fact that I have too many people to love right now, my men, the big and little one, whom I am pouring all my love into, my family etc. Plus all I want to say is , commitment does not equal love.
In marriage, we make a commitment. Regardless of the feeling, we are in it for the long haul. Fleeting feelings come and go, I must acknowledge that ‘feelings’ happen. No denying that. But if you don’t act upon that feeling, then it is safe for the marriage. So I am really glad to report, I am over it and walking away. 
